To live in a world or precisely an environment who’s trying to make you something that you are certainly not is the most difficult and self destroying thing that you have to deal with , in my country if people saw you doing something good or if you have a goal and your giving your best to make it happens they automatically do their best in return to bring your spirit down , they can do the impossible to make you feel insecure about your dream and try to let it go , I know you’re wondering why but simply because they can’t do good , They’ve done nothing in their life and they want you to be the same ,Their life is a huge waste of time on some really absurd things they despite everything new and open , Let me give you a very small example so that you can draw a small image or idea about what I’m talking about , 8 or 7 years ago the “Aids ” was very rare in our country we all know the main source and reason of Aids is sex , Un legal sex or random sex , we live in a Muslim country so sex outside marriage is a huge sin , Some people catches that disease so they said ” Why I have it and others don’t ” so they started to put drops of their Blood in public places like canes of Ketshup , Or the ATM machines …and any public place that every one touch , a year later our country became the second country in the world that has many death because of Aids thousand innocent people dies because of this , And a lot of kinds and innocent citizens , This is the most brutal and cold hard thing that can anyone do , So can you imagine the way they think ? If something bad happens to them they can do their best to make you suffer like them , If they saw you doing good they can do almost anything to make you one of them , I’m not talking here about religion because my religion tells people to live in peace and wish others the best , my dream in to be a writer so it’s funny how they’re trying to tell me Writers are crazy or broke people , Or you won’t be a writer it’s hard and you can’t , I wish if I had a dollar every time i hear a negative criticism , I’d be rich trust me , Thank god I have a huge faith in myself otherwise they’ll affect in me , that is why I just wanna leave from here , of course not all of peoples are like that but most of them , I don’t belong here at all , I just wanna go somewhere where you can feel love and peace and to be surrounded by positive people who wish you the best . Or at least they leave you alone doing whatever you want to , So if anyone has this , You my friend should be very grateful because that’s the precious gift that life can give you , Use it wisely .
think positive
Have you ever had one of those days when you just feel depressed for no specific reason , you just wanna be alone , the voices of people around you feels like the annoying bee that just dont go away , Sunlight looks like that black light that lead to the Disturbing road , you just wanna avoid all that , everything around you , a water drop , a lullaby , a baby’s talk , even dropping your pen wanna makes you break down and wanna cry and cry and let it all out , you just wanna scream but you can’t , you feel suffocated , like you’re inside of a black little box with no light , no air , No matter how you scream no one will hear you , no matters how you cry no one is gonna be there for you , it’s all because of old memories inside your mind , Situations that you wish if you could act another way , You just sick of everything but no matter what you have to keep fate in god , Because after a huge hurricane comes a beautiful rainbow , These memories makes you stronger than ever , maybe god wanted to make your story interesting so there’s a lot of tragedy and struggles before a beautiful peaceful ending .
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